*Disclaimer: though I am usually quite anal about my spelling and grammar, I am completely and utterly drained both physically and mentally, so at this point I could easily spell my name wrong and not notice.*
Climate and creatures aside, my time in Texas has been truly wonderful so far. We sit in class all day long talking about Jesus - it doesn't get much better than that! Trying to take in all this new information is a bit like trying to drink from a fire hose, but it is at least interesting, and the staff do their best to make things interactive and get us up and moving every so often, and keep the coffee pots full. The weekends are mostly free; however, they do a good job of keeping us busy with homework, so "free" really just means I get to pick which assignment I'm going to work on and when. Aside from class all week, we have 3 different books we are going or have gone through, journal assignments each week, language learning, homework from our classes, small group assignments, and some studying to do on Congo. It's utterly pitiful how tired we are at the end of each day.
In addition to all of that, we still have our biggest, on-going project: TRANSITIONING. Everything in our lives is new: everything. New environment, new people, new jobs, new churches, new food (and lots of it!), new bed mates (looking at you, nasty scorpions), new choices (and by "new" I mean "fewer"), new cultures to interact with, new accents to discern...the list seems endless sometimes. There is so much to process that my mind just stalls out sometimes. By the time I get out of class, I am completely worn...yet when I finally finish up my homework and crawl into bed, my mind begins to heat up all the things I'd shoved onto the back burner that day: how do I get to know so-and-so? what does Mercy Ships think about such-and-such? what did so-and-so mean when they said blah-blah-blah? how do I tell my story without sounding crazy? does what I am hearing match what I read in the Bible? and of course, the question that pops up every. single. night: WHY AM I STILL AWAKE?!
Thankfully, I feel I have been fairly well-prepared for most of what has been thrown at me over the last 11 days. Some things do catch me by surprise, though: realizing that I miss being known; missing the culture of the NW; the humidity (seriously - it still surprises me every time I walk out the door and feel like I'm being pressed into the pavement); being with my church family on Sundays (especially Sunday evenings!). I stepped into this opportunity aware that it held a great potential for growth, partly because it meant I would be around people who have to take me for who I am now, rather than being around people who are just grateful I'm alive, functional, and surprisingly sane; however, it is still really weird to be around people who only know me for the person I am now, who don't have the context of reference many of you have. There have been so many moments in the last 11 days when I have thought to myself "Lord, really? I could have never done fill-in-the-blank two years ago. Really?! Why are you so good?!", and while my heart praises and rejoices just fine on it's own, there is no one here who can celebrate that with me. In those moments, I just have to stop my mind and remind myself of what I have been clear of from the beginning: this new life, this blessing that He gave me - He did not do it purely for my sake, but so that I could be a blessing to others and so that He could display me as His "trophy of grace" as two different friends have put it. So off I go to experience all that it means to live out my life after the "Resurrection of the Broken" (that's what my name means, by the way).
Now that we have meandered through most of the crooks and crannies of my cranium, perhaps it is best that I stop blogging and start getting some homework done - another day begins in 9 short hours... I will leave you with this: a picture of my team and where we are all from (note that not everyone in the picture is going on to the ship - some of them will be working here in Texas). If you click the picture, you can see it larger.
